- I think I’m not a welcome guy to everyone, since I began to went to school at six in primary school, it seems that it always have someone doesn’t pleased with me, not only I’m not good at speaking and communicate with others, but also in theirs opinion, I’m not a intelligent boy, as a result, they completely got a “conclusion” : I’m a “unusual” man, two thousand years can only born for one time!
- From then on, I began to know, I’m unable to hear any better words that praised me from theirs’ mouths any more!
- With the time is past, I realized that I’m not that wooden-headed kid, I have my own life in the future, I mustn’t be control by anyone … …
- … …Since I stepped into the gate of the senior school, my college life had began to walk to me nearly and nearly… …
- Long as the time is, I vividly remembered that words what my father and mother told me when I was at senior school: you should study more hard or you will failed to manage your future and failure in the first “choice” in your life.
- I hardly bear it among those days. I was trapped in the anxious willing deeply. I can’t image whether if I failed it, how much business is waiting for me to tackle?
- What’s more, when I recall those things that I’ve experienced before, I immediately understand a proverb: painful past is pleasure. Yes, it’s my own business, if I don’t have ability to give others happiness, don’t I have the rights to avoid disturbed others?
- When my senior school period has past, I just known an unchangeable truth: if only I didn’t have these experiences, what would be happening on me?
- Though my dream had come true, I still worried about it, not only about my study in the “university”, but also about what my most mainly task in the next four years?
- To go ahead or fall behind?
- To win or fail…
- Being happier or sad?
- I don’t know, just as I do not clear what my future is like and where is my future?
- Now, I have got into the college for nearly two years, in this period of times, I found that my situation wasn’t picked up for a little, but critical more and more … …
- Since I got into the dorm where I am living here today, I have been surrounded by a kind of uncomfortable atmosphere.
- Why this phenomenon happened at here? I don’t want to reveal those truths at any rate, until now… …
- Our dorm is made up of seven persons. Among the seven members, Xing Yun Hao、Zhou Jing and I are lower berth, the others are upper berth, what is the real problem is in our dorm? I think, there has already formed a thick “wall”, it curtain off the basic communicates between the upper beds and the lower beds in our dorm.
- That is to say, the misunderstanding had already existed for a long time… …
- So far as I know, on the one hand, among these roommates, someone often gets up very late in the morning. Indeed, it is seven forty or more lately, besides, some roommates playing computer games (the game is online game) out of school, usually at night. Of course, in the net bar, till the next morning. I dare to bet, sometimes, or usually, basically in the whole day, I can only see them for one or two times… …
- Oh, my god! Oh, blamed!
- I really didn’t known why this sort of things always happening on me such frequently and so unbelievable!
- In addition, on the other hand, I might just as well talk about “personal behavior” to those who willing to understand me. (Of course, I unnecessary and mustn’t talk with them).
- There is a very terrible problem in our dorm. That is: —“personal behavior”.
- Why someone likes opening door by foot, not his hand instead? Why some guys like chatting some dull matters after twenty three o’clock everyday?
- (The electricity in each dorm cuts off at twenty three o’clock in the night).
- Don’t they mind those behaviors have just disturbed other roommates?
- Haven’t they ever been thought that it is not inequitable to other roommates?
- Yes, they are! Because they are some impenitent and conscienceless guys.
- They are just doing the dirty things on other pity and kind-hearted men! They never, and forever mind those things, because of these are the “amazing feeling” and “enjoyable” in theirs life. They think only that is the real “university life”.
- However, when they do those things that make other kind-hearted men became sufferer, they didn’t know they have already break some beautiful surroundings in an unknown way. …
- How foully am I! They are basely “men”!
- Oh, no! They are not human as they haven’t any humanity as well!
- That is ours dorm, that is all by reason of our flabbiness, they had the words (among those words, mostly are the orders and the commands to them in order to prevent them from “break down” some splendid things) that said by Xing Yun Hao (the chief in the dorm) to be some stupid jokes, in other word, they think it scorn to those behaviors, that, at present, how can I cope with this condition now?
- In summary, two classic mottos can conclude that content above:
- “Out of sight, out of mind”, “what the eye doesn’t see the heart doesn’t grieve over”.
- I think it is the only and most simple method to explaining those unhappy and nonsense things when I in a perishing mood.
- Even though the doomsday is not yet exists at all … …